Passive/Agressive Begging

Is it awful to pray that a parent dies? Even if they were truly monstrous (honestly, by anyone's definition)? I have decided and commited to moving to Los Angeles in June but the past several months have been so bad financially that I need to come up with ten thousand dollars just to get my head above water much less move and be able to get a place. So I've started telling people all the sad events of my life and asking if they have any suggestions rather than asking for help directly. Sad, huh? I've just suggested to one of my two brothers that it could possibly be an option for them to lend me whatever I stand to inherit from our father and we could settle it when he does pass away. I don't know if they'll go for it but I had to try. Now, back out into the world.