Blindsided

Okay, so I discovered a Dutch Musical Theater Actress by the name of Simone Kleinsma on YouTube singing "As if We Never Said Goodbye" from Sunset Boulevard. The clip was from the 2008 Dutch Musical Awards. As I was watching it for the umpteenth time in less than 24 hours it occurs to me how much she reminds me of my Stepmother Marianne who, to me, is the epitome of the elegant, sexy, sensible, powerful European woman (she's Czechoslovakian from the area that is now the Czech Republic). Following quickly was the thought that I really admire her and what she represents despite the fact that she does tend to be somewhat reserved emotionally unless it's something she's truly passionate about in which case, look out. And suddenly it hit me; I've been working so hard at not becoming my father, I didn't realize I was turning into my Stepmother. Which isn't a bad thing (see my description of her) except that she tends to have really bad taste in men. Okay, so I have to work on that one.