"Sometimes I Feel as Like I'm Almost Gone"

When I was little I saw an episode of 'I Love Lucy' where Ricky had told Lucy some secret about an opportunity but that she shouldn't tell anyone because; "you'll jinx it if you blab". That phrase stuck in my head and has become my own little superstition along with, if you ask whether or not a decision has been made, it will be against you. I just realized that those are in keeping with something my Godmother told me; "never eavesdrop or snoop because you'll only hear or learn things that will make you unhappy". Huh. When I look back in my memory, except for specific life-altering tragedies, I tend to only (or at least first) remember the good, happy and best times but I'm having a hard time recalling being given any encouraging advice. Anyway, there are what could be life-altering decisions being made about me right now where I've pretty much had all the input I can and need to let go. That's a lot easier than it sounds. Doing so makes me feel like I'm fading away. I guess I'm not doing it right. It wouldn't be the first time.